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Labels: friendship, thoughtsBut should the endings be sad all the time? I've had a lot of heartbreaks, a lot of tears fell down my cheeks, a lot of people came and left my rainbow colored life. I've been through a lot of storms, a lot of endings greatly affected my life. I ended my silence a year ago and that was a great ending, we moved on but I'm sure he moved on first. I ended my being a weak creature only weeks ago and it was another great ending. Now, there's an ending again, this time a sad one.There are so many questions bothering me right now. They say that there are only very few truths in life. Number 1, everyone's given the chance to be alive. Number 2, everyone will be ill even just once in his life. Number 3, everything comes to an end including life. Now, my biggest question is, are friendships supposed to end? I don't know the answer, but I do hope it's the 2-letter word. I'm scared, I don't like more sad endings, I don't like failed friendships, I don't like people to leave. Weird enough, what happens is what I don't like. Yes, I suffered a failed friendship. Still suffering actually, just because of stupid basketball.If I were another person, I'd hate basketball right now. It made me cry a couple of times because of sad loses and sad news, it gave me the wrong impression that I can be friends with people who love the same team as mine who I only meet online, and now, it's making my life miserable. But I'm not another person. With or without basketball, maybe something like this would've happen anyway.Failed friendships, why are there failed friendships? Sometimes, it's because of lies, lack of trust, misunderstandings. In my case, it's probably because of differences, differences which are not handled well, common denominators which are not common anymore. In math, one can only add or subtract fractions with common denominators, if they're not the same, one can find the least common denominator if he wants to. In life, it's the same thing. We can only have good relationships if we have common denominators or if we put some extra effort in finding any common denominator at all. Maybe, just maybe, they don't like the idea finding it. The easiest common denominator? Both must want to be friends again despite differences.Closed doors. Maybe they've closed doors for me, maybe they've closed doors for similarities, for friendship. I've always been open to them, I've told them before about what I felt but they didn't like it. I tried not telling them and they didn't like it as well. I don't know what to do, what to feel, what to expect. My doors are open, their worlds aren't. I did things, but they weren't enough for people who don't want to be friends with someone like me anymore just because of very shallow stuff. I have a clear conscience, there are so many things they're accusing me which are not true. They have said so many ill stuff about me, I'm supposed to be strong and not care at all but I can't help but be sad about the whole thing. But then again, what can I do but pretend that I can face everything? If you guys are reading this, I'm very glad. I wanna explain my side. First off, I don't think there's anything wrong with congratulating the winners and in wishing that some other players go the Finals MVP title instead. It's part of being a person with sportsmanship, just like what two of your team's players showed when they came up the stage to smile, to take their trophy, and be thankful that they got to the Finals. Second, I never said teased you about the result of the game, that not how I roll. I never called you losers and I never will, there's nothing good I can get from that. Third, I'm not comparing any team to yours. If you're pertaining to Purefoods, sorry, I don't have a team. I've been a PBA fan since February. Fourth, you're asking me why I joined, right? I joined the group because I wanted friends who share the same passion, not because I wanted to be an ultimate fan. I thought I'd find real friends. But then again, I thought wrong. Fifth, I hope that you won't judge my future by saying that no one will ever treat me right because right now, there are those who do and sadly, you're not like them. You're not seers to say these stuff, you don't know what the future holds. Sixth, I erased my post because I realized that that post won't change the mood of everyone. I wanted to encourage some fans (which do not include you) to not cry over spilled milk. You can't make your team win by being bitter. What else.. Oh yeah, I have friends. I'm not a loner. I actually have a group at school and we're composed of more than 10 members. We hang out together and we're real friends. Don't judge me that easily because you don't even know me and you haven't even seen me in person. You say that I'm a waste of time yet you waste your time plurking about me. Yeah, I admit that I'm sometimes a cry baby. But ask any of my friends if they've seen me cry recently because I haven't. You call me "plastic." But no, I'm not. I'm real and I don't care what people say about me. I'm too frank and that's probably why you guys hate me. I don't do things that a plastic person does, I don't make people that I don't like feel that I like them or something. I'm not a Ginebra hater. I loved Ginebra before, long before I knew about the real stuff. And how the hell can you say that I'm a Ginebra hater? Ginebra has Macky Escalona, Eric Menk, Cyrus Baguio, Chico Lanete, Chris Pacana, and Junthy Valenzuela. I love these players and they're in your team. Do you really think I'd hate your team if I love almost half of your players? Oh please.It's been an extremely sad ending to what could've been a long and happy friendship. I had so many dreams about our group like watching together once I'm 18 or something. I told one of you that before. And she even told me that she'll love me even if I'd become a fan of her hatest team. Where is she now? She's one of you, one of those who hate me. I love the group even if I left Ginebra. Problem is, when I left Ginebra, you hated me. Oh well, as they say, "Good things don't last." This is life, there's nothing left to do but to hold on despite the strong winds that blow.
** kaadikan ng jamships: *** jamships-related wishes **** lahat ng jamships ayaw sa _______ (eto ung most common, based sa gms.) haba no? :) pero i enjoyed writing this post. aliw eh. :) aylabshu jamships! Labels: basketball, bgk jamships, brgy ginebra, friendship, love, thoughtsI don't really know why I suddenly thought about this post while staring at nothing. Well, it's probably because everything in my mind is PBA-related and my cellphone's inbox is all Jamships-related. :)
Anyway, I'd better not go off-topic. So, this whole post is about my beloved Jamships, our likes, dislikes, etc.
* complete the statement: Lahat ng Jamships ay _______supportive - aba, bawal ata ang hindi supportive sa group! haha. super supportive ng Jamships sa BGK man or sa other members. support ng support sa games ng team at kahit sa jobs at exams ng isa't isa. :)madaling kiligin - bawat game, siguradong tili lahat! haha. super kinikilig ang lahat pag naglalaro ng maganda ang mga mahal nila sa team. mabait - super welcome agad sa new members at walang away na nagaganap. kahit na, siguro, minsan may mga misundesrtanding, walang confrontation or war na nangyayari.understanding - we respect each others opinions and reactionsmapagmahal - sa bgk at sa members ng group! alabshu jamships!sweet - bawat text may mwah, *hug,* amishu, at aylabyu. sarap maging jamship no?may kaweirdohang taglay - hmm. siguro ginawa na ni ate madge na requirement 'to? lahat ksi sa jamships, weird! haha. promise, mapa orig member or kagaya kong additional. (new term to use. haha)adik - madami kaming kaadikan! haha. lahat kami may common addiction. eto na. susunod na. ;)brgy ls fm - eto ung una kong napansin nung naging member ako. bawat gm dati may word na "rambo kayo" or "talk to papa," kung ano man yun.. hmm. try ko nga rin makinig..gma7 - eto ang istasyon ng jamships. haha. lahat ata sila ay kapuso? sila, kasi ka-c/s, ka-makisig, ka-mtv, at ka-myx lang ako. ndi ako maxado nanonood ng tv eh.anime - these days, laging may anime sa mga gm nila! ndi ako mxadong makarelate. ang huli ko napanood na anime ay slam dunk. :)) xhaka mga pinapanood kong anime dati, pangbata eh.. parang doraemon, cardcaptor sakura, at kung anu-ano pa. :))survivor philippines - pinagpupuyatan nila ito! haha. lahat ata sila nanonood, ako lang ndi. haha. sorry naman at late na ksi un.surveys at mga pagame - mga namimiss ko na. :(( tagal na rin nung last eh. pag may survey at game, halos lahat naka-unli kaya sabog ung inbox naming lahat!unlitext at unlicalls - grabe. dati, unlitxt lang eh. tapos bigla nilang napagtripan na tawagan ang mga tulog na. buti nalang at hindi pa ko nabibiktima. :))twilight - lahat nanood! haha. ang alam ko ah.. lahat edward ang bukambibig. lahat gusto maging vampire or gustong magkavampire. haha. saya! besides me and ate madge, may twice din ba nanood? hihi. :) pba - kahit hindi BGK, go pa rin at nanonood! bgk - duuuh. haha. mahal namin ang bgk. number one addiction namin yan. :)sana orig member ako. -- ewan ko kung bakit. i mean, lahat naman kami fair ang turingan pero iba pa rin ung nasa acronym ka eh.. parang you feel like you're that important kasi without you, walang "jamships," di ba?sana makanood ako ng game with them. -- saya siguro nun at super ingay! nung nanood nga ako dati, kahit malayo ako from the tres marias (ate madge, tita am, mommy thania) tinginan kami nung pinasok si macky my love. :)sana makapunta ako ng practice with them. -- para may magsalita for me pag nakita ko na si macky.. baka ndi ako makasalita eh. joke. :)) para msaya. super ingay siguro..sana makapagparty kami together. -- aba, party pipz ata ang jamships! nawasak na nila ang kaharian ni tita am at ang redbox sa kaadikan! haha.sana makasama ko sila sa 15th birthday ko -- sana talaga. that would probably be the happiest birthday ever. sana maging housemates kaming lahat -- eto ung pinakaimposible. ndi 'to hahayaang mangyari dahil baka masira ung bahay sa 'min. hahaha!sana lagi ko silang makasama at maging sobra sa super close kaming lahat!air21 express -- duuuh. =))purefoods -- ayaw nila sa 2nd fave team ko..anti-bgk -- aba syempre naman!mga mayayabang at maaangas na player -- lahat naman atakatahimikan -- allergic ata kami dyan? hahapicture frame as a gift -- la lang. nakita ko dun sa answers nila sa churvey eh.-- wala na ko maisip. hahaha. post ako ulit pag meron pa --
Labels: bgk jamships, friendship, loveI never thought that I would be this close to the people in POL. I only joined because a fan told me of its existence. I joined to know more updates on my fave teams. But now, it's a very different story.I became a member during the time when every member can use the shoutbox. I met Ate Madz who gave us the link to one of her blogs. I read it and found out how good she is at writing stuff. I admired her writing style. Then, I asked for her email address and added her up in yahoo messenger. We got closer when we were looking for tickets for Game 7 of the Smart PBA Fiesta Conference which is, of course, a game against Ginebra and Air 21. We both didn't get tickets and had to watch at home. I gave her my number and she gave me hers. We became "textmates."I did not expect to find an older sister in her. I got much closer to her and told her some of the disturbing stuff in my life. She gave me advice. To be honest, she's quite closer to me than my half sister in the States.I learned about the existence of BGK Jamships when I visited one of her blogs. I saw the blog and asked Ate Madz if it was okay if I'd join. She said that I would be welcome. But, I felt uncertain about joining. What if they can't accept me? What if I don't belong with them? What if having both BGK and PF as my two favorite teams would be a hindrance? What if they're only close to each other and not to newbies?Ate Madz assured me that whatever happens, she'd be there. She told me stuff that made me feel like, "this is it. this is a sign. join, hanna. it might be a chance that will never happen ever again."
Ate Madz helped me from joining to keeping in touch with others. She gave me the care I was looking for from my very serious half sis. No wonder I love her already even if we haven't met!I joined BGK JAMSHIPS. Ate Thania, the president of Jamships, welcomed me through text. I met the others and during weekends, I join them in text wars (if there's such a thing).I think even my cell phone is wondering and if it could talk, it would probably say, "hanna, what happened? why do i receive approximately 20 messages an evening now? why do i always have load? why am i always registered on unlimited texting these days? heyy.. can you let me rest now? i'm tired.. and if you don't mind, please delete some messages. the memory's kinda low.."I love BGK Jamships, they make me feel like I belong.. They make my cellphone happy.. They make more people switch to Globe. They make me feel like I have a thousand friends.. :)Now that I am a member of BGK Jamships, I will never let this go.. I will never do something bad deliberately to any of them. I feel like we are one family. I am happy when I communicate with them and why should I stop doing what makes me happy??? ILY JAMSHIPS! I hope that we'll be closer to each other. :)(emo? no... i just feel like writing about my dearest BGK Jamships.. :D)
